The video with the "truth fairy" on youtube contains a gem of wisdom that has stuck with me since I first watched it many years ago.
"The greatest obstacle to finding truth is believing you already have it". Think about that sentence, can we deny it? Everytime the JWs change their doctrine they are changing their truth and thereby it is not truth, the moot expression "old truth" is ridiculous when you read that God does not change.
When the witnesses use the expression "where shall we go to?" they forget that Peter said Jesus was the way, the truth and the light, so really if you believe (I do not) then you have no real problem if you turn to your Jesus and approach God through him.
I do understand how difficult it is to start down this road to find answers to your inner turmoil, it takes time, in my case around three years, before I rejected god, the bible and religion in general.
By the way one of the main ways you can see that Jws do not have real christianity is shown when you fade away from the religion. When the elders finally (if ever) come to visit you they are interested in finding out if your still believe that God is using the faithful and discreet slave (not sure which edition of it is current now) to lead the organization. They NEVER ask the most pertinent question of all "Do you believe in God or Jesus". In fact you can be disfellowshipped for not believing in the F&DS but not necessarily for losing faith in god.
So what does that tell you? They are only interested in the org, not in being true shepherds, it is all about control. Read Crisis of Conscience by Ray Franz it will help you a great deal to follow your own values rather than a man made organization that claims to be directed by God.
P.s. Geoffrey Jackson could not even say it out loud that the GB were the spirit directed organization used by God today,when questioned by a lawyer at the Australian Royal Commission, so there you go.
Best wishes with your quest.